Ok ladies, I need some prayers for myself at this time.  See, I homeschool my children, which this year I have actually schooled 3 grade levels.  6^th grade, 2^nd, and Pre-K.  I feel that this is the best educational set up for our family at this time.  It is a blessing to be able to do this.  However, some of you know that I am also the Children’s Church director as well as the AWANA Commander.  I can say that at times it is very hectic in this house (and in my head) because of being the commander.  I want to quit AWANA, but my husband says I’ll end up being a teacher or something instead and be more busy than I think I am now.  He always has a way of helping me doubt my decisions!!!  Which, causes a problem for me, because he will complain that we didn’t get much school done (during the busy times of year), and then tell me, or suggest that I should not quit the ministry!  He truly has no idea what all I do.  My oldest daughter wants me to quit AWANA.  It just boils down to me needing clear guidance as to what I am suppose to be doing at home and at church.  I just seem to be feeling very stressed all the time because on top of AWANA we do soccer, Girl Scouts, Piano, activities with our homeschool group, and my husband would add 4-H if I let him, and I’m sure he would add more!  I just feel like I do get behind all the time!!  The thing is that all my friends always brag about how organized and together I have it all, but they just don’t realize the struggle I have…even though I talk about these same issues with them!

I just wish I could stop these ministries and not feel guilty about it.  That was one thing my husband made me think about really hard.  Is the fact that it is not fair for me to complain about not having enough help in AWANA, then quit and say that I’m not helping or teaching in it.  What is wrong with me sending my kids to church without me helping or teaching?  Who said I am supposed to teach?  I’m already in charge of another ministry in the church, isn’t that enough???  Would it be wrong for me to not help with AWANA or any other mid-week ministry??  I’m just really in a cross-roads right now and need some guidance through prayer and anyone here who may have been in this same situation!!!!

If this needs to be posted somewhere else, instead of just in the prayers, let me know…or feel free to move it! LOL