What Brought you here???
Merry meet all! I just found you. It is so very hard to find community with christian witches, although it is getting easier of late.
I have been actively on this journey now for about a year and a half. Well, actually I think more like 2 yrs. (time really does fly) I began to realize things about myself and my beliefs about then and began searching the internet for information.
I have a very hard time with the word 'christian'. I was married to a minister in the charismatic/pentecostal church type for 29 years. I shut out the parts of myself that were 'not acceptable' and very nearly smothered to death in the process. I am 7 years out from divorcing him. It took me a long time to break free from his manipulation, control and psychological spiritual abuse. And a few more to break away from the indoctrination of fanaticalness.
I have realized that I am what I am, I am as God created me, with the giftings He put in me and in my path. I was born a witch and an empath. I am just beginning to accept and embrace all of this and become happy and comfortable with me as I am. I LIKE IT. I AM FREE. More so thatn ever in my life. I like who I am and I the wonderful abilities i have pushed away all my life because they were "sinful".
I consider myself a soul witch, pagan follower of Jesus. I believe in God- the All Father. the Holy Spirit-Sophia, and Jesus. the Son, come to earth in the flesh to teach us the right way. I am not Gnostic, I am not Wiccan. I am still trying to figure it all out. I want to learn all I can and need to know about being a practicing witch. My biggest rule is 'harm none".
BUT.... I am still in the broom closet and so very much want to come out. Everyone who knows me know that I am very sensing of the spirit world and different, but to come out and say "Y'all, I am a sure enough witch." ... well, I am not yet ready to be labeled totally insane.
I'm working on it, hard, and meanwhile studying everything I can get my hands on and still keep my secret.So I can't really have a lot of books laying around. I keep it all downloaded onto a flashdrive for now.
I sure would appreciate the fellowship.and insight and knowledge you can offer. My biggest hurdle and frankly the only one I am really worried about is my fiance'. He has accepted everything else strange about me , why I am worried about being a witch and an empath I'm not so really sure about. My youngest son also I am worried about. His dad basically kidnapped him upon our divorce and disappeared when he was 12. He just turned 18 and re-established communication with me but he is already worried about my soul and I just can't add to his burden about it.
I'm sorry this is so long. I am just so glad to find this place :)
Blessed be all~~~